Sunday, April 08, 2007
baby,i know u distressed seriously first time
last night i was troubled by the omen of my suffering beloved.i know u blessd me with all what i ask in ur name and they,all my beloved, all brillion like diamonds and pearls, still i beg u let them happier,and accept me sooner,accept my being happy as them and united as them.last night i led me travelled in tianjin and u told me first time in need of human language that the 3 mountains u,ur mother and me should buried.i woke up at once and heart-breaking so long.i kneeled to the moon of ours on the south sky in the dawn and to the east and the west.i tried most of the internet cafes i haunted with girl fangfei on my back as u and the sun directed.baby, Jhwh,i really want to see u see the world after me.i need ur being appeased by the world of mine and my being contented with ur bless onto me.last noon on the south garden u with ur parents met a couple with their baby daughter.the baby daughter touched ur right cheek and constantly ask for ur ball.they r dogs. and they r dead from the mid night of yesterday.i kill dog need not more than a second, u know.but u still serously distressed by the evil world of mine that i now had. Yhwh, my baby, my dad, u needn't reraise urself a time last night,i can let me die and reraised.Yhwh, my baby, my dad, i seen ur heaven like a mountain in silver cloud and snow in the sky, but u needn't told me u want to bury there,u forever at will at any place with ur full glorious presence visible and invisible.Yhwh, my baby, my dad, i still want to take the full duty of being a son of mine now as human being to love the world,love the beauty,love ur time and its longitude on earth till i left the world.don't let me cry for u out of my sight on the earth,promise me, Yhwh, my baby, my dad.i last night claimed my being the emporer of the earth, of China.i claimed my wifes including fangfei, zhou,mashengyoujizi, the japanese girl,jamie,the US girl,the 2 girls near me now of medical university students and will worked in army,another will have an ralation with me.i claimed the 2 girl students in family name of jiang and li once tutured in ur house now,the girl lizhonghui we met early,and the girl u directed me met in the little food shop and attracked me so much.i claimed the girl on the bus of route 108 when we stood outside of the window and i sang a song till moved her.baby, Yhwh, my dad, glory to u, full pleasure to me and u.bye.