dad, u left us exactly two years today - from my dad benzrad

these days i busy with site building as usual. last night i felt a bit sleeplessly for i too anxious about coming google adsense account. this morning i continued to fine touch my homepage on google page creator, adding google friend connect and modifying layout, correcting forms' errs. dog in China surveillance blocked my domain since yesterday, for they hate and terrified by our sight over the world. i determined to get my adsense account, expanding our means to penetrating the world of our sight and message for the bright and in Chinese, Ming Dynasty. i had waited for the messaging method for months. 

this noon, after our grandson's mother left at her house, i checked my cellphone and found its ur memorial day. grand Dad, i didn't attend ur funeral ceremony, but God let me pick ur land, and ur kingdom from outside of 2 thousand miles, in this northeastern corner of China. i do enjoy the task u left me, and engaged with it all my life. dad, where can i find u again? those golder years when u attending my growth? dad, i cared my baby like attending u, i took the world onto him just like u attending me aside forever, rid the need of phisically. dad, my God, i forever attending u, forever listen to u, that's my vow in front of God last year when i in crisis. God, u know, and u forever know.